Overwhelmed by God’s Grace
Thursday, April 9th, 2009These past few days, I have been overwhelmed by God’s grace. As I think upon my life thus far, it is clear that I truly have been blessed by God’s grace. By grace, I simply mean the undeserved favor of the Lord. Let me explain.
I’m only 28 years old, yet I have had the experience of someone much older than myself. I have been happily married to the love of my life for almost 8 years, faced my husband’s battle with and victory over cancer when we were married only months, owned and sold a home, owned 3 businesses (two of which were franchises), sold a business, completed a college degree in Theology, been licensed as a Foursquare Pastor, served numerous volunteer hours as an assistant pastor doing everything from the books to running the youth and college ministries, and now I serve as the Co-Pastor alongside my husband at Lighthouse Foursquare Church in Santa Cruz.
I have experienced the ups and downs of self employment. I have experienced the prosperous mountaintops and the valleys of lack. I have often worked 60+ hour work-weeks, without pay… and even paid to do it since the business was lacking the finances to pay the bills on its own accord. Yet through it all, God has been faithful! His grace has been evident in my life. I have experienced His undeserved favor time and again. These testimonies…I want to share.
I never wanted to own a business. I never saw myself as an entrepreneur. Yet God did. I bought my first business as a resale at the age of 23. I saw it as an opportunity to run with the passion God had given me: ministering to women of all ages, sharing with them the hope I have in God. 2 years later, my husband and I sold our home to move to Fairfield so we could volunteer our time at New Community Church in order to serve and gain ministry experience. Upon doing so, we were blessed with opening a second business in Fairfield. I remember opening week…and every week thereafter…I got to minister to ladies one after another. I was honored to pray with them, laugh with them and cry with them. I was blessed to be in such a position of influence over the lives of so many ladies who were broken and in need of a Savior.
What’s so funny is that during this time God taught me to rely on Him for my provision, not the businesses He’d provided me with. He taught me the difference between His economy and the world’s economy; the difference between success in His eyes and success in the world’s eyes. You see, if the world were to look at my life and business ventures they would say they were failures; yet in God’s eyes, they were great successes and investments in His Kingdom economy. Women who were lost and broken came to the knowledge of a Savior. Hurting children of God were restored. The purpose was simply that women would be made whole: spirit soul and body. And in many, this took place.
During the valleys of which there were many, God provided day by day. Some examples of His provision:
- A beautiful car was given to me, with only 3000 miles on it…no strings attached.
- Though my husband took a huge pay cut to follow the Lord’s will in His career path, we were able to pay our bills, though on paper it would seem impossible.
- My husband was granted, without knowledge, stock back in 2001. And this was made known to us when he left the company. God’s provision for such a time as we needed it.
- We sold a business when it was desperately needed.
- We were forgiven a debt.
- And just a few months ago, we had no money to purchase replacement tires for our truck, yet someone anonymously donated the money for that specific purpose.
I could go on and on about the grace and provision of God. But there is one more I want to share: Just yesterday, my husband and I decided that we will close our business in Fairfield. This was the toughest decision I have ever had to make. I simply couldn’t pay the rent and could barely make payroll. So, I emailed my landlord and prayed for God’s favor. The response of my landlord blew me away. God’s grace was evident, His favor undeniable. With the blessing of my landlord, I am able to stay in business a couple more months – rent free. This allows me time to (a) transfer ownership of the business should someone want to purchase it or (b) close it in the proper manner, with integrity toward the membership. Moreover, the landlord stated that he will forgive my debt of the remaining contract should I need to close after such time. WOW! Talk about undeserved favor of the Lord. This was undeniably God’s grace at work.
Truly, everything I have is a gift from the Lord. A loving and gracious husband, countless blessings, every possession, every debt forgiven…absolutely everything is a gift from God. I am simply a gracious recipient of His undeserved grace. Proverbs 10:22 says ”The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.” In the eyes of this world, I may not be rich, but even better…I am rich in His kingdom for I store my treasures in heaven. This world and all that is in it is passing away, but God remains. And in addition, I have complete joy and peace that God will continue to provide for me as I follow and serve Him faithfully. After all, what a privilege it is to serve Almighty God.
